Wednesday, May 11, 2011

Falling Down.

Have you ever seen a bug that has landed on its' back and is struggling with every ounce of strength in him to get back right side up? Do you ever notice it never stops fighting...?

I need to be more like the bug, we all do. When I fall down and land on my back in life, I should never stop fighting to get back on my feet. No matter how long I've been on my back trying with all my might to get back on my feet..never stop fighting.

Finding wisdom in the little things...just have to slow down enough to learn them.

Kenlyee Slept.

My sister and I were going through an older box of stuff this morning as she's getting ready to go away for the summer, and we came across a paper that she wrote for school. Those of you who know me well know that my daughter's father went to prison when she was four months old. My sister wrote this paper about our experience in the court room that way when we heard the verdict. This paper brought tears to my eyes..

Kenlyee slept. I walked her up and down the stairs and through the halls of the court house until her little body relaxed and fell soft against me. Kenlyee slept as we sat down back in the waiting room and the woman and her daughter with the bruised cheeks smiled at me and my achievement.
Kenlyee slept as her grandma ran past us, toward the bathroom. Her grandmother lookd me in the eyes and her face was wet and resilient I stood up and Kenlyee slept as her other grandma followed behind, her eyes red and tears streaming. She nodded her head at me, "Ten years". I sat back down. The doors to the court room opened and Kenlyee slept as everyone filed out, bringing with them their tears and this strange, anxious, yellow energy. I saw her mother's face, red, and white, and dappled just like mine, and Kenlyee slept as my eyes, too, filled with emotion.
Friends and family gathered and clung to one another through these invisible bonds of uderstanding and together created a great swirl of dark brown and pale white. They brought her daddy out, one hand connected to another man in pink handcuffs, and the great brown and white swirl buzzed about him like some provoked hive of bees. I watched him hug her mother goodbye and Kenlyee slept as I trembled and heard myself gasp. Her daddy kept looking at her and looking away and looking at her and looking away, so I walked her to him and Kenlyee slept as he gave her one quick, painful kiss on the head, like such as a child would submitting himself to a shot from a syringe. Kenlyee slept and I could hear the lady and her daughter behind us, "I'm confused.", "Oh I think they're two sisters". They took him away and we buckled Kenlyee into her carseat. My mother stepped into an office with two men in business suits, one with square glasses. We sat down on the stairs and Kenlyee slept as the public defender stoped to as on his way out, "What are ya'll waiting for?" He barely noticed my glare as her mother answered," My mother is talking to somebody." We put Kenlyee's cover over her little glowing face as we stepped out of the courthouse into the wind and cold. We made sure the car seat was firmly locked into the base and then we started the car and drove out of Lonoke, Arkansas and away from it's promise of "Life as it should be". We bumped off the exit and the interstate was smooth as we made our way back to Little Rock and Kenlyee slept.

Monday, April 12, 2010

Song(s) of the Day.

I've been slacking lately. But I've also been VERY busy. I'm not doing quotes today.. just songs.. enjoy!

Nobody Loves Me But My Mother - B.B. King

Stand - Rascal Flatts

Wanna Be A Baller - Lil Troy

Violet Hill - Coldplay

Leopard-Skin Pill-Box Hat- Beck

You Can Bring Me Flowers - Ray LaMontagne

New - No Doubt

D.A.N.C.E (Stuart Prince Remix) - Justice

Six Feet Deep - Geto Boys

Irreplaceable - Beyonce

What Are You - Dave Matthews Band

Sleeping In - Postal Service

Buddy Holly - Weezer

All Men Are Freezing - Robert Pollard

Tru Love - Faith Evans

Young Money Ballaz - Nicki Minaj

Thursday, March 25, 2010

Song(s) of the Day.

Love To Make A Stang - Three 6 Mafia

Lights and Music (Moulinex Remix) - Cut Copy

Best Of What's Around - Dave Matthews Band

I Want You - Kings of Leon

Captains and Cruise Ships - Owl City

Long Time Gone - Dixie Chicks

What It's All About - Al Green

Nuthin' But A G Thang - Dr. Dre

The Last Song - Foo Fighters

Baby Britain - Elliott Smith

Clarity - John Mayer

So Much Beauty In Dirt - Modest Mouse

Quote(s) of the Day.

"Life's ups and downs provide windows of opportunity to determine your value and goals - Think of each obstacle as stepping stones to build the life you want." - Marsha Sinetar

"The three hardest tasks in the world are neither physical feats nor intellectual achievements, but moral acts: to return love for hate, to include the excluded, and to say, "I was wrong." - Sydney J. Harris

"Until you value yourself, you won't value your time. Until you value your time, you will not do anything with it." - M. Scott Peck

"Today is the tomorrow you worried about yesterday." - Proverb

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Song(s) of the Day.

Purple Haze - Jimi Hendrix

Something's Gotta Hold On Me - Etta James

Bless The Broken Road (Acoustic) - Rascal Flatts

What King? - Gucci Mane

You A Trip - Webbie

Black Mirror - Arcade Fire

Save Tonight - Eagle- Eye Cherry

Day Tripper - The Beatles

Smile - Lily Allen

Relic - Beats Antique

On My Block - Scarface

Surf Song - James Yorkston & The Athletes

Crystal Ball - Keane

Got Your Number - Nadia Oh

Quote(s) of the Day.

"Success is not the key to happiness. Happiness is the key to success. If you love what you are doing, you will be successful." - Herman Cain

"If you tell the truth you don't have to remember anything." - Mark Twain

"Don't walk in front of me; I may not follow. Don't walk behind me; I may not lead. Just walk beside me and be my friend." - Albert Camus

"Experience is the name every one gives to their mistakes." - Oscar Wilde